i'll cry about this earth in heaven too

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hi, how are you. it’s been forever or maybe that’s just what it feels like. i want to be here more but i also have enjoyed being on here less. recently, i started a new position which means it’s the first time i’ve worked full time (outside of the house) in over 5 years. it’s been new and different and although it’s not very glamorous, it’s been good for me. i feel good. i’m tired but i’m happy.

i’m trying to find a schedule for substack that works for my new work schedule. i don’t mean to neglect this platform but on my days off, i want to be out of the house or i’m with people i care about. i reach for my phone less, i’m on my computer less. not being so tuned in on anything revolving around my instagram/substack feels really good and healthy. i’m maybe enjoying it more than i thought i could ever admit.

but! i have so many more interviews for an important question lined up. i feel so grateful that so many people i admire were willing to be open and vulnerable with me for this series. coming up in the next few weeks will be an interview with dianna cohen, the founder of crown affair, eliana gil rodriguez, founder of gil rodriguez, one of my favorite novelists, megan nolan, courtney rafuse, the founder of universal flowering (daddy by universal flowering is my new favorite scent and it’s unlike anything i have ever smelled before), my sweet friends mackenzie richmond who is a personal chef and chloe lucas-walsh who is the queen of pop ups all around california and new york just to name a few.

i think i started to feel like substack has become inundated with so many newsletters. everyone has a fucking newsletter. what more could i add to this space? i’m not a discourse writer. i don’t write about pop/food/fashion culture. i think i started to feel shy and unsure about what i have to offer. i know my newsletter has slowly become less personal but it is still a place for me to pour my heart out and i miss it. i know i haven’t been the best with sharing recipes so i want to get better at doing that. i recently hosted a sit-down dinner party for more people than our dining room table can fit so i want to write about hosting and how stressful but rewarding i find it. i want to write about the endless dirtying of dishes when cooking something delicious. i want to write about what it means to live in a home. i want to write about things that i’ve been excited about. i want to write about life again.

i’m excited to be back.