what i ate this week

with tastebuds that feel dead and vertigo

hello, how are you, how are you feeling, have you been eating well? i’ve been out of sorts for the last week and a half. when seasons change or when the weather goes from berkeley cold to upper 70’s in a span of 12 hours or when i’m feeling kind of melancholy and depressed, i notice that sometimes my appetite becomes very picky almost like a toddler’s. certain textures suddenly feel very strange, certain flavors and smells are unpleasant or what is almost worse is everything tastes so bland and joyless. i’ve also been experiencing pretty bad vertigo which has been extremely unpleasant and discombobulating (i can no longer eat salads from mixt due to puking my brains out from vertigo one night). all of this combined has led to a week of strange eats but also a couple good ones.

i went to trader joe’s on a whim one afternoon with the sole purpose of replenishing a jar of cornichons in my refrigerator but after walking around the store in a frenzy (fyi: they do not sell cornichons), i randomly grabbed a packet of baby carrots. i ripped a hole in the package while stopped at a red light and found them to be the most delicious thing in the world. i know that’s very dramatic, even for me. it’s just a carrot!! but something about not having much of an appetite lately and eating something so crunchy, slightly sweet and cold was amazing. not to be dramatic again but it tasted so safe and good, that i wondered if i could just survive on these baby carrots and carrot juice alone. so, i have been snacking on these baby carrots from trader joe’s for the last week, with no dip or anything and it’s been a food that has tasted good to me when nothing else really has.